amidst all the chaos which has governed my life these past few days...after seeing her, my heart is swollen and ripe for love. i think? i dunno, i thought i was over her when she hurt me one time too many...but i can't deny that her smile her laugh, our kisses, her touch, her stories, my stories, our stories, our E.S.P., it's all so very vivid. for years, i told myself i don't deserve her till i believed it, and then i let myself believe i deserve her. i let myself grow finally, but i was long gone in austin by then.
i love her. i can't be fighting that anymore. but it isn't in the stars any time soon.